Sunday, January 30, 2011

Pin Cushion

1 hr. gestational diabetes test.
Needle in one arm.
Pee in cup.
Drink sugar water.
Go back in an hour.
Needle in other arm.
Normal blood sugar 70-140
Test results next day--I have gestational diabetes--165.
Go back for 3 hr. testing
Needle in one arm.
Pee in cup.
Drink sugar water.
Go back in an hour.
Needle in other arm.
Pee in cup.
Come back in an hour.
Needle in other arm---no blood comes out soooo, needle in other arm.
Pee in cup.
Come back in an hour.
Needle in other arm---no blood again comes out soooo, needle back to other arm.
Pee in cup.
Test results, still waiting..............

Fun post I know, that's how I felt about the "fun" day I had.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Ecstatic-Unprepared-Surreal-Happy as a Lark-Body Stretching-Can't Wait-Joy-Anxious-Thrilled-

Are just of few of the adjectives that can explain how I'm feeling right now. I know it's been killing some of my family members that know and so, for those of you that don't, Bryce and I are having a baby. In fact, we are having a baby girl! She is due between April 23-27th we'll say. Because as many of you mothers out there know, those Dr.'s just can't seem to stick to a date.
So yes, you did the math by now, I'm 26 weeks along, just a couple weeks shy of entering into my 3rd trimester. How did I keep it a secret that long???? I have no idea. Quite frankly, I can't believe it myself!
I was going to wait until the baby had been delivered and just post a picture for all you readers out there, but since this is a journal for me, I thought I better get some of these memories down on paper.
As you all know, it hasn't been easy, but we both knew it would happen. It just had to be on His time, or maybe it was on baby girls time, could she be that stubborn, especially in Heaven? (that could be scary!!!)
After a few years of trying with Dr.'s and getting the run around, we finally came across Dr. Johnson whom we've been with for just under a couple years now. What a Saint. He has been the most caring Dr. and obviously helpful because, well, here we are. It has been a long road with him though. Lots of monthly blood work and shots, lots of pills trying to get hormones leveled out, taking a LOT of fertility doses, having another surgery and we finally got to the point that he thought we could actually do artificial insemination. Wouldn't ya know it, it took on the second try.
So far it has been a great pregnancy for me. Other than the Dr. telling me I'm pregnant, which I still have a hard time believing, I don't feel all that pregnant. At the beginning of my pregnancy, I kept telling Bryce, that I just don't think I'm pregnant anymore, it's just not normal to feel so normal. Every 4th appt. when I go back in for an ultrasound there is a sense of relief that comes with hearing her heart again. At about 18 weeks I started to feel those flutters in the belly, you know the ones that could be mistaken for gas. I haven't thrown up once. People say," that's so not fair", and I say, "oh gees, you don't think after all I've been through, it's not fair to give me that?" I have had heart burn since day one and the back aches came not too far behind that. I have the heart burn under control for the moment it's the back that makes me nervous. It just seems to get worse and worse.
Christmas came a little early for Bryce, on the 23rd, he got to feel the baby move for the first time.
We had our big ultrasound appt. last week and she's measuring in at about 1 pound 10 ounces. Everything seems to be healthy as far as they can see.
It's such an amazing feeling to have something inside of you. I think that only mothers can relate to the instant feeling of protection and worry that comes the second you find out your expecting. Suddenly your conscious of everything you put into your mouth, well maybe some of you were conscious of that before hand, not me. Every time I take a bath I'm worried about the water temperature, how I sleep, etc. etc. etc. It's a scary thought to have someone else's life in your hands. I can explain it to Bryce all I want and he says he understands, but I don't think that he will ever truly get it. What a privilege it is to be a woman. I'm so grateful for this gift that my Father in Heaven has entrusted me with and can't wait for her to get here. We are so excited to be parents, the funny thing is, it really doesn't matter how long you can want and wait to be a parent, the thought of her coming into this world still scares the crap out of me!

Friday, January 7, 2011

Holiday Season/ A Present to Remember

Well, Christmas has come and gone and I'm left sad:( I don't know where this season ran off to, but I swear it did a 100yard dash in 3.2 seconds. (random #, I just thought it seemed really fast).
It was filled with lots of family time and fun traditions.

This year for Christmas, Bryce and I started a new tradition with our stockings. Our new tradition was nothing special, just fun. We picked a couple of isles each, that we were to go down in a store not knowing what was down the isle before we got there. Once we got down the isles we were to find something for the other person. We got some pretty different gifts in our stockings this year, it definitely mixed things up.
Bryce got the stroller isle and at the end there were some baby blankets. He also scored with the movie isle, "Despicable Me".

I got the little kid toy isle, luckily at the end of the isle they had Apples to Apples and he also got himself a six pack of colored pens, awesome!

Christmas Eve was at my parents this year where we had fondue, I count the days down for this fondue because we only get it once a year. Can you tell I really like it? We ate and ate and then acted out the nativity scene, which I must say, really needs some work people!

Christmas morning was back to my parents for breakfast and presents, it was delicious as usual. The breakfast not the presents. The presents weren't too shabby either.

My parents do not have enough room in their freezer, so we bought them a freezer chest for Christmas. Us carrying the freezer through the front door.....

Mom figuring out what it is......

Opening the box.....

Me saying, "turn around so I can take your picture", and my dad saying,"let's kiss over the freezer honey". What a weirdo

Then off to grandparents and grandparents and then to the Stevenson's. We spent the rest of the night together as we always do, eating, playing games, spending time with one another and eating again. I really do love the holidays and am so thankful that we get to spend them with family.
Playing games at the Stevenson's....I think I took more pictures with Kaylee's new fancy camera than I did on my own. Send me some pictures Kaylee!!

I'm grateful for a Savior who was brought into this world many moons ago. I'm so thankful for him and for everything that he has done for me. I'm grateful for this time of year that we all get to reflect a little bit more on our Savior and really contemplate things. I love that I have family that keeps us grounded during the holiday season and to remember the true meaning of why we celebrate Christmas.

I hope that you all had a fabulous Holiday season!


This year on Christmas Eve, my sisters and I received a present from my parents. A journal from my grandmother and a few pieces of her china. I never had the opportunity to get to know her because she had passed away from breast cancer when I was only a few months old. My mom had gone through my grandmothers journal picking out key portions that she wanted to put into a book for us. It was fun to read little bits of her childhood, to scan through pictures of her, to read about all of her kids and their accomplishments, but the part that touched me the most was her testimony. I read the whole book to Bryce, and when I got to the part of her testimony and her final journal entry, I just cried. I loved reading her testimony of how strong of a women she was even when she knew her time was about done on this earth. She still had such a strong testimony of Christ in her last moments here. She mentioned that one of her most precious possessions was her testimony. It made me think, how many of us truly cherish our testimonies? Does it take something like death to make us hold them dear and remember the things that are truly important in this life. I know that I need to live my life more to the fullest and to be grateful for this simple possession that I hold so dear in my heart, that no one can ever take from me, my testimony. I'm so grateful for this gift that I received this year. I will forever cherish it and I love that it is something that can be passed down from generation to generation. I feel that I know my grandmother a little bit better than I did before this Holiday Season and I know that I will get the opportunity to meet her again someday to swap stories with her. This truly is a gift to remember and these are the kinds of gifts that matter most.
Till we meet again, sweet Grandma Afton Vaughn Bryson